Where I’ve been & Where I’m going (Hiatus)

Blog Hiatus

It’s been months since my last blog post, and it’s taken me until now to find the strength and energy to actually say ‘hey, I’m on hiatus!’ officially. I’m doing ok, the blog is here to stay, but the more I learn about my life now with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS/ME), I am realising that everything is different. Everything has to be done differently. That means I need to take some time to get back on my feet, and what was supposed to be a month’s break has now become three months thanks to an ongoing viral infection that seems to love me just a bit too much. I could hang back and wait for the new year, but there’s a Christmas project that has me really excited and I’m determined to put it into action this year. So I’m taking November to recharge, change some things up and get posts ready to go for December.

 

Changes

I don’t think any of my other health conditions has had such a massive effect on my life, at least not in a way that has upset my daily routine and hobbies, as much as CFS. I am now officially diagnosed after two or so years (it’s been that long that I don’t even remember exactly) of tests and stress. Having the diagnosis is both a positive thing and a negative thing. It’s here to stay, my life is irreversibly changed and I can’t help but wonder sometimes ‘what if I’d done things differently’. The sad thing is though that I didn’t cause this. It was an unfortunate series of events that eventually took a long term toll on my body. And as a result my life has to change.

The biggest changes are to my other websites. Sites I used to be proud of, that I wanted to work on and new projects that I had planned. None of them seem to matter any more simply because I don’t have the energy to care. I’ve had to face the fact that I can’t give them the attention they need, and that trying to put energy into them is just more of a strain on me. Then I worry about them, worry about myself and what it means. Then one day it hit me; it doesn’t matter. That part of my life has ended, that door has closed. I could take the time to find someone to adopt them, to keep them going but that is just more work, another set of tasks that I have to complete. So instead I’m just saying goodbye, removing the issue and moving on.

In regards to this blog the biggest change is that I’m cutting down on deadlines and weekly/monthly topics. I’ll be keeping the ideas, such as the Birthstone series, but I won’t be putting unnecessary time limits on them. There’s really no reason why it has to be that day of the week, or that particular time of the month. Obviously, there will be some events that will end up calendar based – Christmas topics, for example – but currently the only posts that will have any timing whatsoever will be Transmog Tuesday and the Birthstone series. Sharing Saturday is being retired, and while I will be continuing to do interviews I’m not going to worry about them being monthly.

 

So I will see you all again in December! ((Photo courtesy of Public Domain Pictures.))

Flu 1, Heather 0 aka a blog hiatus

Flu Hiatus

Well, technically it’s Flu 3. That’s the amount of times I’ve had flu in my life and each time it’s left a lasting memory of the god awful feeling of death. I don’t know why flu always hits me so hard. The first time was when I was a teenager and I ended up missing the last few weeks of school right before summer, the second time was 2 years ago and was the trigger for chronic fatigue syndrome. Every time it takes 2 weeks minimum for me to get back to normal, and every time I curse the idiot that went out in public while contagious, thank the flu vaccine for covering me most of the time and listen to my fiancé cursing me when he contracts it from me. We’re both in terrible rough shape with it this time around; me with my 6 diagnosed health conditions and pending diagnosis (yes, still pending, don’t ask) of chronic fatigue syndrome and him with a litany of health problems that include gall stones, chronic pain and a newly discovered rare and super serious (as in the deadly kind) heart condition.

I’ve pretty much been his carer 24/7 since December, and now with us both down with flu it’s becoming even more difficult to keep up with everything. So I’m grudgingly suspending blogging for at least a week. In light of everything, blogging isn’t really important, however, it’s been a life line to my sanity. Therefore, I don’t want to stop it or put it on hold indefinitely. Since my CFS started a year and a half ago I’ve been gradually fighting to keep going, and a lot of stuff has been put on hold. I’m now officially nearing my final deadline for my dissertation, and to be honest, I want it done. I want it off my conscience, off my plate and I want to say ‘hey I can still do this!’. I’ll be back, and in the mean time, you can hear my flu-like woes and rants on twitter @Justgeekingby 🙂 Healing thoughts and energy are readily accepted, as is chocolate and ice cream (sore throat and fever, it’s allowed :P). ((Banner image from Public Domain Images.))