Flu 1, Heather 0 aka a blog hiatus

Flu Hiatus

Well, technically it’s Flu 3. That’s the amount of times I’ve had flu in my life and each time it’s left a lasting memory of the god awful feeling of death. I don’t know why flu always hits me so hard. The first time was when I was a teenager and I ended up missing the last few weeks of school right before summer, the second time was 2 years ago and was the trigger for chronic fatigue syndrome. Every time it takes 2 weeks minimum for me to get back to normal, and every time I curse the idiot that went out in public while contagious, thank the flu vaccine for covering me most of the time and listen to my fiancΓ© cursing me when he contracts it from me. We’re both in terrible rough shape with it this time around; me with my 6 diagnosed health conditions and pending diagnosis (yes, still pending, don’t ask) of chronic fatigue syndrome and him with a litany of health problems that include gall stones, chronic pain and a newly discovered rare and super serious (as in the deadly kind) heart condition.

I’ve pretty much been his carer 24/7 since December, and now with us both down with flu it’s becoming even more difficult to keep up with everything. So I’m grudgingly suspending blogging for at least a week. In light of everything, blogging isn’t really important, however, it’s been a life line to my sanity. Therefore, I don’t want to stop it or put it on hold indefinitely. Since my CFS started a year and a half ago I’ve been gradually fighting to keep going, and a lot of stuff has been put on hold. I’m now officially nearing my final deadline for my dissertation, and to be honest, I want it done. I want it off my conscience, off my plate and I want to say ‘hey I can still do this!’. I’ll be back, and in the mean time, you can hear my flu-like woes and rants on twitter @Justgeekingby πŸ™‚ Healing thoughts and energy are readily accepted, as is chocolate and ice cream (sore throat and fever, it’s allowed :P). ((Banner image from Public Domain Images.))

Taking a Mindful Break

Memories

It’s been a while since I wrote a personal post. I’ve just been doing prompts, linkups and weekly series and getting more and more frustrated with that fact. It’s great to have regular content, however, I’ve had zero energy to actually do anything else. April was just a mess, and while May seemed to begin with a fresh start it has devolved into the same as April. Pain, fatigue, migraines. That’s my daily routine right now and yes, it sucks beyond belief. On top of that I’ve been adding a pile of extra stress, from the important to the mundane, and I’ve realised that I need to stop for a bit.

 

A Mindful Break

About 4/5 weeks ago I started a mindfulness CBT (Cognitive Behaviour Therapy) course. I’ve done a lot of CBT before, but the mindfulness bit is new and is making a big difference.

 

Mindfulness is the awareness that emerges through paying attention on purpose, in the present moment, and non-judgementally, to things as they are.

 

A big part of this is redeveloping my relationship with my body, something I’ve been considering a separate entity with a mind and will of its own for many years now. I’m trying to learn and understand what my body wants and needs by listening to it, and by doing so without judgement. That is why I’m taking this break. Initially for a week, I’m going to listen to what my body wants and do what it needs. That doesn’t mean no blog work entirely; if I want to do it, I’ll do it. But there will be no to do list, no plans, just spontaneous and mindful action. I’ll be posting this weeks #TransmogTuesday because I can delve into my pre-created supply of sets and because I just started this feature. However, yesterday was supposed to be the Birthstone series post and yeah, it just wasn’t going to happen. So I’m planning on a week, with new posts coming next weekend. I’ve also got physio starting this week on top of my MCBT so it seems like a good time to have a light week.

 

Timeless Thoughts of a Snowy Alton Towers

Timeless Thought Link Up

Timeless Thoughts is a monthly linkup run by Tara and Georgie.  To participate in this link-up, bloggers can document about topics they find unforgettable in their past or present. It can be a thing, a hobby, an event β€” write about it on your blog and join the link-up. Doing this will allow bloggers to get to know each other and to travel down various memory lanes together!

Find out more here! Join in this months Linkup over at Georgie’s blog.

 

My Memory

 

Alton Towers Trip - Sun Shinning

 

The memory I’ve decided to talk about is the time we went to Alton Towers for Easter… and it snowed. It’s not that unusual for it to snow in Britain around March/April any more, and has become more frequent in recent years. This was back in 2008, so it wasn’t that common and you also don’t expect to go to a theme park and have snow appear out of no where! It really was a total freak weather front that moved in.

 

The Journey

Our first sign of danger was when it suddenly started hailing on the first trip up and they weren’t small hailstones. We’re talking golf ball sized chunks of ice bouncing off cars on a motorway. As you can see from picture 1, the motorway slowed right down because visibility was terrible. Then not long after it was all rainbows!

 

Yes, it did really snow…

After seeing that rainbow we thought we were in the clear. The sun was out, the weather had calmed down… yeah, riiight.

Alton Towers Trip - Snow

 

Alton Towers was covered in snow, although most of it had melted due to the brilliant sunshine that appeared after. Again, we were sure we were in the clear…

 

Alton Towers Trip - Posing in the Snow

 

As you can see by the number of plushies I’m holding; we’d been in the park for a while by this point. I was pretty smug at the amount Chris had won at this point (and I have since learned this was NOTHING in comparison to what was to come) and because it was snowing. I normally hate snow, but the park was well kept and salt was everywhere so didn’t need to worry about slipping over. Instead it was just very surreal and fun!

 

What We Did

For anyone not in the UK, Alton Towers is a theme park resort in the West Midlands in England. We were living in London at the time so it was quite a trek, so we went for the Easter weekend and stayed over in a hotel for a night. I’d never been to this one before because my nearest one to London was Chessington World of Adventures which was so much closer in comparison. There was also Thorpe Park, which I still have never been to, which was closer than Alton Towers. Chris, being from Scotland, had been to Alton Towers as it’s the nearest big one (outside of Scotland) to him as a kid. This was pretty early in our relationship so we were at the stage of ‘show me yours, I’ll show you mine’ and so I took him to Chessington and he took me to Alton Towers – I still prefer Chessington and he still prefers Alton Towers πŸ˜€

Because the weather was so on and off again it meant some rides were closed the first day, or were just too wet for us to even consider. So we went on a wander around the park, exploring, taking photos and generally mucking around. We came across some weird piano playing nun that was riding around and we hit loads of amusements. I found out that Chris not only LOVES them and has a competitive streak a mile wide – but he’s also bloody brilliant at them! We had so many plushies we, umm, sort of filled the car on the way back πŸ˜€ I’d never had someone win stuff for me before, so I was so excited and had more fun doing the arcade games than going on the big rides.

 

 

Mini Golf

We both love Mini golf so before we left on the final day we headed to the crazy golf course to play a round or two. I think this may have been the first time we played together and now we play pretty much any where we go if we can. I’m absolutely terrible at it and Chris normally wins, but it’s great because neither of us care about winning. It’s the fun, the messing around, the total fluke shots that happen and generally just unwinding.

 

We had the course to ourselves as well, probably because it was still cold and a bit icy out as you can see from the photos. So we could take our time, muck about and not have to worry about catching up to anyone or getting in anyone’s way.
The funny thing is, I don’t really remember any of the big rides. We went on some, and there were a few I refused to go near (I’m scared of heights), however, it was the small things and the novelties of the whole weekend that just made is so special. It was a lasing memory that we made and that we’ll keep forever. We always remember the hailstones and every hail storm we see always gets compared to the Alton Towers one to see if it can be beaten in craziness.

 

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Geeky Girl Tag

The Geeky Girl Tag
I love surveys, memes, challenges – anything that asks me to answer things that I haven’t thought up myself. I’ll often repost those ‘ask me…’ graphics on twitter and instagram to see what people come up with. So when I saw this geeky girl tag answered by Kitten at The Howling Wolfheart I had to jump in!
The tag is originally by Cassie at ZombieGoddess Beauty and she has also done a Gamer Tag too!

1. What is your must-have tech gadget?

Once upon a time I would have said it was my PC, however, after a year of having my tablet it wins this award. I love how much I can do on my tablet, how I can read books, comics, play games, leave myself notes, social media and so on. Only thing I don’t use it for is blogging, I much prefer an actual keyboard for typing.

2. Which house do you belong to in Hogwarts?

I am in Ravenclaw! You can read more about my life in the HP universe in this post from 5 Fandom Friday’s Potter month last year πŸ™‚

3. Who is your favourite Doctor?

10! I do love all the other new Doctors (sorry, I’ve not watched any older stuff yet!) in their own way but the first one that springs to mind will always be David Tennant’s Doctor πŸ™‚

4. If you could have dinner with any fictional character, who would it be?

I would probably go with someone old, wise and immortal who has travelled and seen so much. I think the Doctor or Captain Jack would be awesome, and likewise, Yoda too.

5. What is your gaming system of choice?

PC πŸ™‚ Consoles hurt my fingers πŸ™

6. If you had a super power, what would it be?

Healing; as a spoonie the idea of being able to ease someone’s pain sounds like the best superpower of all to me.

7. What is your favourite fantasy world?

One, just one? Oh man… I’m sorry, I can’t pick just one. It would be a toss up between Azeroth (World of Warcraft), Tortall (Tamora Pierce’s novels) and Terre D’Ange (Jacqueline Carey’s novels)!

8. If you could be any fictional race, what would you be?

Twi’lek! I love Twi’leks so much, they’re beautiful, graceful and I could be purple!

9. Star Trek or Star Wars?

Pft… you need to ask? πŸ˜› πŸ˜‰

10. List your top 5 geektastic movies or TV Series.

I’m going to go with TV Shows:
  • Supernatural
  • Eureka
  • Buffy the Vampire Slayer
  • Scorpion
  • Bones
11. List your top 5 favourite video games.
  •  World of Warcraft
  • Dragon Age (whole series)
  • Fable III
  • Star Wars: The Old Republic
  • Guild Wars 2

 

Tagging

 I don’t have anyone in particular in mind, I’m late to the party so many people have already done it! So please tag yourself and let me know in the comments if you take part πŸ™‚

The Questions

1. What is your must-have tech gadget?
2. Which house do you belong to in Hogwarts?
3. Who is your favorite Doctor?
4. If you could have dinner with any fictional character, who would it be?
5. What is your gaming system of choice?
6. If you had a super power, what would it be?
7. What is your favorite fantasy world?
8. If you could be any fictional race, what would you be?
9. Star Trek or Star Wars?
10. List your top 5 geektastic movies or TV Series.
11. List your top 5 favorite video games.

My thoughts on going back to Physio (again)

thoughts on returning to physio

Tomorrow is my first physio session with the Centre for Integrative Care, which is a homoeopathic hospital designed for people like me who have multiple health conditions; “Most patients referred to the Centre are experiencing chronic pain, chronic low energy, and/or chronic low mood or anxiety”.

I’ve had plenty of physio before, I know what to expect, and I know what goes on. The thing that is making me really nervous is that this is an NHS physio. Last time I went to see an NHS physio I ended up walking out of the appointment because the woman was extremely unprofessional. Instead of concentrating on what I needed, I got a speech about how she has hypermobility and is s perfect (stick thin) example of how you can be active and healthy with that condition. Yeah. My doctor was not impressed either. I ended up going private (shout out to Glasgow Physio centre who have an amazing, supporting and friendly team, highly recommend them!) and made more progress in one session than I did in 8 years of on-off again NHS physio.

The problem is that a normal NHS physio is there to get you back on your feet and out the door asap so they can move onto the next person. They are only able to concentrate on one part of your body at a time, not which part is hurting that week. Do you have any idea how amazing it is to go to your physio and say ‘my neck’s been bad this week, can we take a look at it?’ and actually get help there and then? I will hopefully go back to Glasgow physio centres, but right now I need to find out what is happening with my body which means being with the Centre for Integrative Care and being referred for their different services.

The biggest worry is walking in and being told it’s my weight, again. I already have had the ‘you need to be active’ spiel from the consultant – although he was very nice and understanding about it – and the fact that I’ve lost over 2 and 1/2 stone since November is in my favour. I’m working on it, just not actively. It’s like my dissertation work; I’ve been so ill and then I get something worse. Here’s just the last few months; ill in January with glands, February chest infection, March still the chest infection (I think, I can’t seem to shift it) and a stomach bug for 7 days. That’s just the last few months. The last few years have been as bad. I’ve gradually been going down hill until the last year and 1/2 my body has finally had enough. They believe I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, which fits all the symptoms and is another chronic long term health condition I’ll have for the rest of my life. It’s depressing thinking of it like that, and I need my new physio to be able to work with me and how that makes me feel. I don’t expect them to be a therapist, just understanding and supportive while also pushing me.

So fingers crossed!